Marvel’s Black Panther Made Me Feel All Sorts Of Feelings | #BlackPanther


Warning, this post contains potential spoilers! If you have not seen Marvel’s Black Panther yet and wish to avoid spoilers, come back to this post at a later time.

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Marvel Studios’ BLACK PANTHER..L to R: Erik Killmonger (Michael B. Jordan) and T’Challa/Black Panther (Chadwick Boseman)..Ph: Matt Kennedy..©Marvel Studios 2018

This past week I finally saw Black Panther in theaters. I know, I know. I might as well turn in my Marvel fan girl card right now. We were at Disney when it came out and we had opted not to take the girls. (After seeing it, I am really glad we made that decision.) When we came home my husband had a lot of time to make-up at work and had to work late nights and the weekend. Then the following weekend, we had plans to go but had to cancel our sitter when the stomach bug hit our house hard. Finally, my husband and I made it to a Monday matinee. I am so glad that we saw this movie because it made me feel all sorts of feelings – from laughter, to sadness, and even shame.

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Marvel Studios’ BLACK PANTHER..Shuri (Letitia Wright)..Ph: Film Frame..©Marvel Studios 2018

I Felt Laughter

Black Panther wasn’t nearly as humorous as Guardians of the Galaxy and Thor: Ragnarok, but it was still a fantastic film. One of the funniest characters in the film was Shuri. When she said “What are THOSE!?!?!” I almost died from laughing way too hard. I literally had pains in my stomach. Letitia Wright, who plays her, is brilliant. She is beautiful, badass, and just so funny. I loved her in Black Mirror, so I was really excited to see her in this movie. She did not disappoint!

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Marvel Studios’ BLACK PANTHER Ayo (Florence Kasumba) Ph: Film Frame ©Marvel Studios 2018

I Felt Sadness

Toward the end, when T’Challa and W’Kabi get turned against eachother by Killmonger, that hurt. Seeing friends fighting friends was hard. I would be lying if I said I did not tear up over it. It was Civil War all over again, which I was not prepared for. When Okoye and W’Kabi have that conversation on the battlefield – about if she would kill him – man, that was rough. That scene is one of the major reasons I am glad I decided against taking my 5 and 6 year old daughters to see the film. I don’t want to them to know there are things in this world that will turn brother against brother, friend against friend, lover against lover….because there are. They are too young to know that. I want them to hold on to innocence as long as they can.

Marvel Studios’ BLACK PANTHER..L to R: Erik Killmonger (Michael B. Jordan) and T’Challa/Black Panther (Chadwick Boseman)..Ph: Film Frame..©Marvel Studios 2018

I Felt Ashamed

When Killmonger says to just bury him at sea like his ancestors because they knew “death was better than bondage”, I started sobbing. I immediately felt so much shame. Man, my ancestors sucked. How could they do this to other human beings? I just don’t know. There is no other way to describe that moment, and several others where oppression was mentioned, as shameful. I wanted to pull my hood up over my head and hide myself. It is disgusting to me that this is something that actually happened in the world – that it is something that is STILL happening in this world. When it shouldn’t be.

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Marvel Studios’ BLACK PANTHER Black Panther/T’Challa (Chadwick Boseman) with Nakia (Lupita Nyong’o) and Okoye (Danai Gurira) Ph: Film Frame ©Marvel Studios 2018

I Felt Proud

Finally, I felt proud. Proud to be a Marvel fan. Proud to support a company that is becoming so great at shining a light on how important equality is. A few years ago, they threatened to pull out of filming in Atlanta if they passed the anti-gay bill, and now they put out Black Panther. This movie was necessary for so many reasons. People need to see this. People need to understand. Every human is equal. They just are – it is not something that is up for debate. And I hope everyone realizes that soon. It pains me to know that my girls are growing up in a world where there are humans that think other humans are less than them.

In my showing of Black Panther, there were two old white ladies. I am talking, at least 80 or 90 years old. They clapped at the end of the movie. That filled my heart with hope. It made me happy and it made me bawl even harder than I already was.

Black Panther Mid Credit Scene

Marvel Studios’ BLACK PANTHER..T’Challa/Black Panther (Chadwick Boseman)..Ph: Film Frame..©Marvel Studios 2018

Bonus: I Felt Excited

Every true Marvel fan knows that there are stingers at the end of the movie. Black Panther has a mid-credit scene (which is great) and an end credit scene (which is even better). The final scene shows Bucky in Wakanda. He is talking with Shuri about having much to learn – I am guessing that she makes him a badass Vibranium arm. But one thing that really had me excited was the children calling him “White Wolf”. If you are a comic book reader, than you know White Wolf was a big part of T’Challa’s life in the comics. He was adopted by T’Challa’s father, T’Chaka. Perhaps the Marvel Cinematic Universe will combine parts of White Wolf with Bucky? Or perhaps we will see White Wolf in the future? One can only hope. My guess is that Bucky will drop Winter Soldier and go full White Wolf mode. Eek!

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